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    Thursday, June 30th, 2005
    10:21 pm
    < x the ones you have done>

    (x) smoked.
    (x) madeout with a member of the same sex.
    (x) had a crush on someone of the same sex.(if u count a movie star cough Kate beckinsale)
    (x) had a boyfriend
    ( ) crashed a friend's car
    (x) made out in a car
    ( ) stolen a car
    (x) been in love
    (x) been dumped.
    (x) shoplifted
    ( ) been fired
    (x) been in a fist fight.

    (x) snuck out of my parent's house (not my parents but yes I have snuck out)
    (x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
    ( ) been arrested
    ( ) made out with a stranger
    ( ) gone on a blind date.
    (x) lied to a friend
    (x) had a crush on a teacher
    (x) skipped school

    ( ) slept with a co-worker
    ( ) seen someone die.
    ( ) been to Canada
    ( ) been to Mexico
    (x) been on a plane
    ( ) thrown up in a bar
    ( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
    (x) eaten Sushi.
    ( ) been snowboarding
    ( ) been moshing at a concert,.
    ( )been in an abusive relationship
    (x) taken painkillers
    (x) love someone or miss someone right now
    (x) laid on your back and watched clouds go by
    (x) made a snow angel
    (x) had a tea party
    (x) flown a kite
    (x) built a sand castle
    (x) played dress up
    (x) jumped into a pile of leaves.
    (x) gone sledding
    (x) cheated while playing a game
    (x) been lonely
    (x) fallen asleep at work/school.
    ( ) used a fake id
    (x) watched the sun set
    (x) felt an earthquake.
    (x) touched a snake
    (x) slept beneath the stars
    (x) been tickled
    (x) been robbed
    (x) been misunderstood
    (x) petted a goat
    (x) won a contest
    (x) run a red light.
    ( ) been suspended from school
    (x) been in a car accident
    (x) had braces.
    (x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
    (x) had deja vu
    (x) danced in the moonlight
    (x) disliked the way you look

    (x) witnessed a crime
    (x) pole danced
    (x) questioned your heart
    (x) been obsessed with post-it notes
    (x) squished barefoot through the mud
    (x) been lost.
    (x) been to the opposite side of the country
    (x) swam in the ocean
    (x) felt like dying
    (x) cried yourself to sleep
    (x) played cops and robbers
    (x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
    (x) sung karaoke.
    (x) paid for a meal with only coins
    (x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
    (x) made prank phone calls
    (x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose.
    (x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
    (x) danced in the rain
    (x) written a letter to Santa Claus
    (x) been kissed under a mistletoe
    (x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about.
    (x) blown bubbles
    (x) made a bonfire on the beach.
    ( ) crashed a party
    (x) gone rollerskating
    (x) had a wish come true
    ( ) humped a monkey
    (x) worn pearls
    ( ) jumped off a bridge
    (x) screamed penis in class.
    (x) Ate cat or dog food.
    (x) told a complete stranger you loved them.
    (x) kissed a mirror to see what my lipstick looked like
    (x) sang in the shower.
    (x) have a little black dress
    (x) had a dream that you married someone.
    (x) glued your hand to something.
    ( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
    ( ) kissed a fish
    (x) worn the opposite sex's clothes.
    (x) been a cheerleader.
    (x) sat on a roof top
    (x) screamed at the top of your lungs.
    ( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
    (x) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours
    (x) stayed up all night

    (x) didn't take a shower for a week.
    ( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree.
    (x) climbed a tree
    (x) had a tree house
    (x) are scared to watch scary movies alone.
    (x) believe in ghosts.
    (x) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
    ( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say.
    (x) gone streaking.
    (x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger.
    ( ) broken a bone
    (x) been easily amused
    (x) caught a fish then ate it
    (x) caught a butterfly
    (x) laughed so hard you cried.
    (x) cried so hard you laughed
    (x) mooned/flashed someone
    (x) had someone moon/flash you.
    (x) cheated on a test.
    (x) have a Britney Spears CD.
    (x) forgotten someone's name.

    (x) slept naked
    (x) French braided someone's hair
    ( ) been threatened to be kicked out of your house
    ( ) been kicked out your house just for the night though
    (x) cried because of a song.
    (x) realized how lucky you are
    (x) gone swing-dancing
    (x) said yes before you knew what the favor was
    ( ) Stalked someone through away messages.
    ( ) Wrote and performed a rap for a friend.
    6:14 pm
    Hey everyone. well life sucks pretty bad right now. I am grounded for reasons we won't go into for at least a month. They took away my car (unless I have to go to work), they took away my cell phone, I have to ask permission to do every little thing, and going to Vegas with tyler now on spring break is sorta questionable. Yeah it sucks real bad. I just wish my parents were more understanding and realized that we don't like in a perfect world were your kids tell you every detail about their lives. I'm not them and I never will be. And the thing is I know my dad did the same thing which just makes him a hypocrit. But it doesn't matter because he makes the rules and in his eyes he is right and I am just stupid and can't be trusted. Yeah well now that I got that out, not much else is going on. Sondra moved into her new house and it rocks even though it is way out in bfe. Her and Joe are together now and she is so happy. Plus Joe is a fun guy and it's fun four me and tyler and sondra and him to just hang out. Which we did every day for two weeks straight. wow lol. Let's see work is boring as usual. Don't even want to think about school. My friends rock and I love all of them. I think that they are the ones who keep me going. And for the ones I haven't hung out with this summer (leigh lol) CALL ME! we should deffinately hang out.... once I am un-grounded. lol. Well, I guess I am gonna go now. love ya'll. leave comments. byez!
    P.S. Like I said my cell phone is gone so if u need to call me call me on my house phone before 10. 282-2210. byez!
    Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
    8:16 pm
    bored...
    WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
    1 I died from natural causes:
    2 I kissed you:
    3 I lived next door to you:
    4 I started smoking:
    5 I stole something:
    6 I was hospitalized:
    7 I ran away from home:
    8 I got into a fight and you weren't there?:
    WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
    9 Personality:
    10 Eyes:
    11 Hair:
    12 Family:
    WOULD YOU:
    13 Be my friend?:
    14 Keep a secret if I told you one?:
    15 Hold my hand?:
    16 Take a bullet for me?:
    17 Keep in touch?:
    18 Try and solve my problems?:
    19 Love me?:
    20 Date me?:
    HAVE YOU EVER:
    21 Lied to make me feel better?:
    22 Wanted to kiss me?:
    23 Wanted to kill me?:
    24 Broke my heart?:
    25 Kept something important from me?:
    26 Thought I was unbearably annoying?:
    ~*::And More::*~
    27. Who are you?:
    28. Are we friends?:
    29. When and how did we meet?:
    30. Describe me in one word.:
    31. What was your first impression?:
    32. Do you still think that way about me now?:
    33. What reminds you of me?:
    34. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
    35. How well do you know me?:
    36. When's the last time you saw me?:
    37. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
    38. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?:

    Current Mood: confused
    Sunday, May 8th, 2005
    8:33 pm
    Shaniqua
    Hey homies. was^? nm goin on here. I am super bored. Weekend has been kinda dull I;ve been at home or working all weekend. Except for Friday. I went and played lazer tag with Alyssa, Kevin, Zach, and Tyler. It was a lot of fun. Shalonda kicked our asses. lol.Yeah... I am pretty bored and can't think of anything else to write so I am gonna go. ttyl.



    "Brad..... Janet." lol

    *~Kelly~*

    Current Mood: devious
    Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
    9:49 pm
    ...bored...
    Haven't updated in a while... copy paste this and answer it and leave it on my comments. Later guys!

    1. Who are you?

    2. Are we friends?

    3. When and how did we meet?

    4. Do you have a crush on me?

    5. Would you kiss me?

    6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

    7. Describe me in one word.

    8. What was your first impression?

    9. Do you still think that way about me now?

    10. What reminds you of me?

    11. If you could give me anything what would it be?

    12. How well do you know me?

    13. When's the last time you saw me?

    14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

    Current Mood: bored
    Monday, December 27th, 2004
    7:40 pm
    It's been a long time...
    Wow it;s been forever since I've updated this thing. Probably because I am always updating my xanga page instead. Things have been pretty good. A couple people, well only one really, have been getting on my nerves lately. But who really cares. Christmas rocked. I've also been fortunate enough to be spending A LOT of time with Tyler. I love you baby! lol. I miss Sondra. She's in Montana until the 30th and things are just so boring without her. lol. Other than that life is pretty boring. I guess I'm gonna go. ttyl. love ya'll. byez!

    P.S. If you want to check out my other journal. go to Lovegurl07 at www.xanga.com

    Current Mood: devious
    Sunday, November 28th, 2004
    9:44 pm
    Bored...
    Wow I am incredibly bored so I thought I would update. Just got done eatin with the family for my sister and my birthdays. Pretty fun but I ate too much. Got some clothes and some money so that rocks. Now I am sitting here talking online with my homies. lol. My b-day is wednesday. yay! I am finally 16! Tyler came over 2nite too. It was a lot of fun. He always makes me have a good day. Went to Leigh's last night and hung out with her and ate Oreo's. yay! lol. Well, I am getting pretty tired so I guess I am gonna go. ttyl. luv ya'll. leave comments. byez!

    Current Mood: lol I think it's hillarious
    Wednesday, November 24th, 2004
    3:02 pm
    Ok kids time for another sexuality posting! lol well now i just figured out that one of my firends is bi and has a g/f. (btw normally i wouldn't post this but half of the people who read my xanga know and if you don't know... no I will not tell you who)Yeah it's kinda but for a personal reason but we won't get into that. (no, I am not bi)So yeah she has this g/f who she's done stuff with. It's kinda freaky but not all that bad cuz I've had a couple people confront me about thier sexuality. The 1st was way back when, the 2nd was great and funny but then all of a sudden died until a certain party (lol), and the third being this. So I am not as shocked as I would be expected to be. Even tho in the bible it is wrong I am still supporting her cuz I know this girl and we used to be best friends and I know there is no changing her mind. But I just want to leave with this ... think about your personal sexuality .... think about what it would be like if you were bisexual or gay .... what would you do .... is that who you really are ... how would you want to be treated? think about it. It's not so wierd after all.

    Current Mood: crazy
    Thursday, November 4th, 2004
    8:59 pm
    Me...
    I am happy. For the longest time i had been trying to make everybody else happy and forget about myself being happy. But you know what? now I am going to start thinking of myself too. I am happy. I am. So why can't others be happy for me? I'ts my life, my decisions, my choices. Nobody else, just me. you can't run my life anymore. I will do what I want. This makes me happy and will make me happy for the rest of my life. I will always love both of you equally and trust me honey you will be my maid of honor on my wedding day. (well unless my sister beats you to the chase, you know how that goes)I may not spend as much time with you as we did when we were like in 7th or 8th grade but I can't spend all my time with you. It is physically impossible. And you know i am only a phone call away. If you call me and tell me hey this is really important I would draop anything and everything. But please, please don't tell me that I don't know what I'm feeling and that I'm making a mistake. I will know whether I am making a mistake or not and if I'm wrong it is so much better to learn from my mistakes than to have you rub it in my face cuz that just makes me hate things even more. Anyways now that I have that off my chest. talk to you guys later.

    Current Mood: I think it's hillarious
    Wednesday, October 13th, 2004
    3:54 pm
    Ever fell like u act really different around other people. I mean most of the time I am myself but around a certain people I just act like either crazier or stupider. Like around all of my really close friends I am totally myslef. But around like Robby and doug and Brandon I do tend to act a little crazier. And like around Mallory for some reason I act really stupid. I don't know. oh well, gonna go now. ttyl.

    Current Mood: confused
    Sunday, October 10th, 2004
    11:12 am
    Hey everyone. not much goin on here. pretty bored. I'm avoiding writing my European history paper. ack. Had a pretty fun weekend. Went to tyler's house yesterday tee hee I was very happy. We just chilled at his house and it was fun. I feel like I haven't had actual alone time with him in like forever so it was good just to sit down and talk and be together and . hehehe. Anyways things went a little crazy over there too cuz kelly was stupid and had to get online. I am not gonna get into this one. It's not my life and I don't care. Gonna go to youth group later. I am so happy. I feel like I haven't been in 4ever. I think we're decorating pumpkins for the bazaar. which I can't go to b/c of stupid PSAT's. Oh well taking the test will be "good for me". I just found out that my cousin is like great friend's with my yourh leader's (Jeremy) "girlfriend". they like group up together and all so jeremy knows my cousin. hmmm coencidence? But the kicker is that according to Jeremy he and this girl are not dating but acording to my cousin they are... hmmm Jeremy is there something you need to tell us? lol He cannot have a g/f. He's like... Jeremy. no... no g/f for Jeremy. lol. Ok and yeah why is it that I have the biggest mouth ever? Urg cuz it only stresses me out even more. oh well we won't get into that. Ummm what else went into this weekend looking to.... uhhh.... do something... and it didn't happen. but oh well, u can't exactly plan these things. (tee hee Leigh) and I know what some of u are thinking and u are wrong just to clarify that. Well, I am all out of exciting things to say. ttyl. love ya'll. leave comments. byez!

    Current Mood: naughty
    Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
    5:04 pm

    #1 Boyfriend Survery

    Created by tleelovesbnl and taken 79 times on bzoink!

    Vital Stats
    Full NameTyler Dean
    NicknameTy
    BirthdateAugust 20
    Height/Weight5'10"/190
    Where was he born?Louisville
    Where does he live now?Jeffersonville
    How far away from you does he live?20 minutes
    The Two of You
    Where/How did you meet?Through Friends
    How long have you been together?2 years
    Where was your first kiss?A basement
    What/Where was your first date?Movies
    Family
    How many brothers/sisters does he have? What are their names?none
    What are his mom's/dad's name?Kay/Gary
    Do you like his family?yes
    Has he met your family?yes
    Do they like him?yes
    Does he like them?yes
    Favorites
    Favorite colorgreen
    Favorite songI don't Wanna Miss A Thing
    Favorite bandAerosmith
    Favorite candy barHershey
    Favorite ice creamcookie dough
    Favorite saying/phrasehowdy
    Favorite movieWe were Soldiers
    Favorite showChapelle's Show
    Likes/Dislikes
    What does he like to do for fun?Spin Glowsticks
    What do you guys do for fun?Hang out at his house
    Do you have a lot in common?yes
    Favorite Fruit/Vegetablecucumbers
    Least favorite fruit/vegetablelima beans
    Favorite foodbeef jerky
    Least favorite foodlima beans
    Complete each statement
    When we're apart:we miss each other
    He makes me feel:beautiful
    I'm really hoping that:we stay together forever
    The greatest gift he's given me is:himself
    The greatest gift I've given him:myself
    Random Questions
    Where does he want to go someday?Technical College
    Does he make you laugh?yes
    Does he make you smile?yes
    Are you thinking of him right now?yes
    Is he a good kisser?yes
    Do you dream about him?yes
    Does he dream about you?yes
    Do you wish you could spend more time together?yes
    Does he turn you on?yes
    Do you guys have a "song"?yes
    What is it?I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing By Aerosmith
    Is he a good dancer?no
    Do you have pet names for each other?yes
    Have you celebrated a holiday together?yes
    Have you driven each other to the airport?no
    Have you taken a trip together?yes
    Embarrassing Questions
    Have you passed gas in front of him?yes
    Has he passed gas in front of you?yes
    Do either of you burp in front of each other?yes
    Is it a big deal if you do?no
    Does he embarrass you sometimes?yes
    Do you embarrass him?yes
    Important Questions
    Have you seen him cry?yes
    Has he seen you cry?yes
    Have either of you said I love you?yes
    Who?both
    How long ago?recently
    If you haven't said it, do you want to?
    What's stopping you?
    Do you think you're going to marry him?yes
    Do you think about marrying him?yes
    Do you want to marry him?yes
    How soon?in about 6 years
    Can you picture having kids with him?yes
    What would they look like?very cute
    Have you talked about marriage?yes
    Lastly. . .
    Is it love or lust?lobe
    Does he make you happy?yes
    Really?yes
    Is he the greatest thing since sliced bread?yes
    Do you think you will stay together?yes
    Are you seeing him tonight?no

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    Current Mood: bouncy
    Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
    9:23 pm
    Sad...
    My moods have been changing a lot lately. I am just really sad right now. A few minutes ago I was doin good but all of a sudden I can't stop thinking of him. I miss him so much. I don't realize it until I don't see him for 4 or 5 days. One day a week is no where near good enough. he's what keeps me happy and when I don't see him I just get really sad. HE doesn't make me sad, not seeing him makes me sad. I feel so horrible cuz I have treated him like shit lately and I know it. I want to make up for my bitchyness. The worst thing is to hear I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing or Iris. They make me so sad. PLus everything is sort of piling on top of me again. My parents... Lord I don't want to get into that part... ,school (Ahhh), people in general, and just a lot of feelings and thoughts I have been having lately. Do you ever just feel like crying just to cry? Just to get it out of your system for the month or w/e. That's how I feel right now and nothing will come out. Everything is just getting on my nerves and I don't want to deal with it anymore. gonna go now. ttyl.
    Monday, September 20th, 2004
    4:52 pm
    Bored....
    Hey everyone. I am incredibly bored and I don't feel like updating my xanga so I thought I would update here. This whole xanga thing is making people ask toooo many questions. I miss ty a lot. I can't wait until this weekend. :-D I am sooo excited! Let's see I finally got invited to go sumwhere with a certain sum1 who I've learned is nothing more than friends but it's on a school night and I can't go. Urg. Maybe we can do something next weekend though ;-) lol I am really.. I don't know... b/c I have been thinking about a lot of things lately. But that is another story. hehehe. Well, I guess I am going to go since I have nothing that I can write since I found out people actually do read this LJ. ttyl. love you guys. byez! :-*
    Monday, September 13th, 2004
    9:56 pm
    haha...
    You know what.... nobody even reads this!!! lol so why do I keep making entries? I don't know. Maybe I should put some of my inner thoughts on here. The ones that I really think but never say because then it would start drama. Hmmm it might work just becuz NOBODY reads this! I will make entries later.
    Sunday, September 12th, 2004
    9:55 pm
    Sex???
    Hey every1. was^? trying to get out of studying for my french test. I just thought I'd write cuz I made a discovery. I learned what people mean when they say teens want to "explore with their sexuality". I learned that I do want to explore (not in a bad way, I want to stay a virgin) and I also learned that I am very sexually open. I mean if u think about it I think you are too. I think a lot of people are just affraid to say things cuz their affraid people will call them freaks. I mean just becuz u want to try something doesn't mean ur gross or a freak or a slut. Like a said , teens do just want to explore. And I think that's how it was with the big M. We were all just too affriad to say it until we did. I mean if we don't explore how will we know what we want. I know I probably sound like a hypocrit right now cuz hell I've been with the same guy for almost 2 years. But I think the reason why I've never said anything is cuz I've never had anybody come up and want to talk to me about it. So anyways if ur feeling this way too just gimme a holla. Well, I better go before somebody does think I am some psyco lesbain or something. lol. love ya'll. leave comments. byez!
    Sunday, September 5th, 2004
    10:06 am
    Crazy, Crazy, Crazy....
    My life is a big ball of confusion right now. I want to just c=scream everything at the top of my lungs. I want everyone to know exactly how I feel. How fucked up everything is and how scared I am. I'm so scared and there's nobody here. I feel empty. I may seem ok but I'm not. Somebody please just listen to me and tell me its ok and that you're going through the same things I am. Somebody please....
    Friday, August 27th, 2004
    4:46 pm
    bored out of my mind!
    Hey every1! I am so incredibly bored! I am grounded and my parents are outta town so I am forced to stay at my grandma's house. Not bad since I can sit around and play on my sis's new laptop. Pretty boring tho. I miss tyler soooo much. I want to go to his house really bad but I can't until next weekend. I miss chillin w/ my homies too. lol but seriuosely I miss hangin with my friends on the weekend. I get so bored! well, I guess I am going to go. I will update again l8er 2nite. ttyl

    Current Mood: bored
    Thursday, August 26th, 2004
    6:19 pm
    Boring Life
    Hello all. I created this LJ just for the heck of it. Also so I could go and read and post on other ppl's i know LJ's I won't updat as much on this as I will on my other 2 xanga's. If you would like to visit them go to www.xanga.com and then search for either Lovegurl07 or Leavingitallbehind. Well, I am going ot go eat dinner now. ttyl. byez!

    Current Mood: blah
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